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New Beginnings

29 Jan

Just typing ‘New Beginnings’ caused a few tears.  Man, the past few years have been overwhelming, difficult, tearful, great, depressing, amazing and rewarding.  There have been so many changes.  For one, I went through a divorce in 2013 and I also met my now husband, James.  There have been so many new beginnings: healing from a divorce, a new relationship and a marriage.

For my husband, his new beginning came after his open heart surgery.  I can’t begin to explain the difference the surgery has made on his life – it’s almost like night and day.  James has always had a GREAT sense of humor and that has not changed one bit, but his energy has increased so much.  I am so proud of him.  He has started working out this week and he has been so committed and devoted to regaining a healthier life.  He has truly been an inspiration.  He just keeps on ‘ticking.’  Ha – he has a mechanical valve, which causes a ticking sound when his heart beats.  

For me, my new beginning came just this year.  And with the help of a friend, I have forgiven myself.  Actually, this year, I have tried to forgive myself and others for all sorts of various reasons.  I am so tired of being mad, angry and depressed…I want to be happy, positive and most of all, I want to enjoy life with my family and friends.  With this new year of making all things positive, comes letting go of feeling sorry for myself.

I urge you to try and make your life more positive.  Let go of the anger.  Stop holding onto grudges and just simply let go.  Your soul will thank you.

As far as working out this week, I completed an entire week at CrossFit.  Woop – go me!

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Life and Stress of a Struggling CrossFitter

7 Oct

It has been months since I’ve updated this blog and I’m still unsure if I’ll be able to keep it updated as often as before…

 

My life has changed so much this year.  In February, my life took a totally different direction.  My marriage of almost 8 years ended.  The biggest adjustment has been going about life only seeing my son every other week.  Going from seeing him every single day to seeing him for 7 days at a time and then not seeing him for 7 days has been tough.  I have cried and cried and cried and missed him so much, but having a child does not save a marriage.  Even though it has been tough, for me, it was the best decision.

 

So this is my life now.  I’m a single mother.  I work full-time.  I am 5 classes away from finally having my undergraduate degree in Marketing.  I manage the accounts at River Region CrossFit.  I feel guilty when I don’t spend every minute possible with my son.  I also feel guilty when I pick my son up from daycare, take him to the box and WOD while someone else is taking care of him.  It is hard for me to totally dedicate my mind to WODing when I feel like I should be with my son.  It’s tough.

 

Through the stress, I have tried to just get through each day.  My goals for my journey have not been lost and they are still there, but right now – I’m just trying to overcome the stress.  So much happens to your soul when you go through a divorce and all I need is support from friends and family.  I don’t need lectures or to be told what I am doing is wrong, I just need a shoulder to lean on when things get tough.  I need a listening ear when I have a bad day.  I need someone to tell me I am a great mother when I miss my son.

 

I haven’t given up on my fitness.  I haven’t given up on CrossFit.  I haven’t given up on myself.  All that being said, I do have bad days.  I have days of anxiety.  I have days of depression.  It is there and I cannot escape it, but I also have many days of happiness.  I do have someone in my life other than my son who contributes to making me feel good about myself.  Our meeting was unexpected, but I do not regret it.  The timing wasn’t the best, but again I wouldn’t change it….

 

Just a few days ago I was talking to my coach and friend, Josh, about my life.  I have confided in him along the way.  He doesn’t let me give up on myself and helps me remember to “keep things Fletch.”  I beat myself up all the time because when I am able to WOD – I’m still scaling all my WODs.  In December, it will be two years since I started the CrossFit lifestyle and I should be RXing all my WODs.  Josh reminds me that my life since February has been turned upside down and I’ll get back to where I was…it will just take time.

 

For now, I cannot make new goals.  I cannot say, “this is what I’ll do next.”  At this point, I can only deal with the current and present moments in my life and take it day by day, and remember each day is a new day.

Can you say sore!?!?!

26 Mar

Remember back in January when I posted about the Ravage?  Well, we are deep in the Ravage with just a few weeks until the end and our box is straight up Beastmode.  It is almost ridiculous.  Our coach, Josh, stopped posting the WOD‘s on RRCF’s website – with good reason.  He didn’t want to give anyone an excuse to skip the WOD based on intensity, etc.  And well, the WOD’s have been intense – but I enjoy it.  It’s progress.  Everyone is working so hard and it seems like it’s bringing our RRCF family closer together…

…and because of our “working so hard,” our bodies are so sore!  We have three back-to-back WOD’s this week due to the box closing down for spring cleaning Thursday – Sunday, and man – I may need some Epsom Salt – STAT!  Our WOD on Monday was:

21-15-9

Deadlifts

Toes to Bar

…2 minute rest…

3 rounds of 10 hang cleans and 30 sit ups

 

I completed the 21-15-9 with 135 pound deadlifts.  I still can’t get a toes to bar, but I give it all I got!  The hang cleans were only at 75 pounds, but after those deadlifts – it felt much heavier!

Tonight’s WOD was 13.3!!!  Ahhhhhh!  Wall Balls are not my thing.  I was able to get 139 wall balls out of the 150 with a 10 pound ball.  Not the best, but I’ll take it.  After all, that’s an improvement!

Keep WODing, y’all.

Still here and still WODing.

20 Mar

Well…what can I say?  It has been a long time since I last posted on “i chalk it.”  My apologies to my followers.  I have had to deal with some personal issues and I still am unsure of how often this blog will be kept up-to-date.

 

All that aside, I do have great news.  I finally hit 40 pounds lost and slid into a size 10!  We started the Ravage at RRCF and I am so proud of all the Ravagers!  We are all working so hard to “activate, intensify and destroy!”  Remember a few months ago, when I had a major breakdown because of handstand pushups?  You’ll never guess who finally got their own handstand hold?!?!?!  What? What?  Yup, that would be Fletch.  And just in case you do not believe me, check out the picture below.  In addition, I am finally able to do 2 double unders in a row, but can actually link them together with a single back into a double!  Oh oh oh, and I got my 1 mile to 10:10, but since then ran 1/2 mile and decreased my time to 4:49!  Major improvement.  And, I PR’d on my power clean this week – up to 105!!

Handstand

 

I am finally feeling like I am accomplishing goals in the box…I have even been able to WOD RX instead of scaled.  It is still surreal that CrossFit stuck when most everything else didn’t…it feels good to work hard for something and actually see results.

 

That’s all for now.  Keep on keeping on!

PR, PR, PR!!!!!!!

15 Jan

We’re a few days in the Ravage and it is awesome!!!!  RRCF already feels like family, but now we’re coming even closer through motivation, inspiration and just supporting each other.  Tonight was one of those nights I’ll always remember.  Our WOD tonight was CrossFit Total.  We maxed out on back squats, press (no push!), and deadlifts.  We worked up to find our max, but could only attempt our max three times.  Once you maxed out on each movement, you totaled all three movements – which equals your CrossFit Total.  There were some amazing totals tonight!!!  Everyone is working so hard and giving it over 100% and it feels amazing to be a part of it!

 

I hit some PR’s tonight!  Eeeek!!!  I hit 170 pounds on the back squat, 65 pounds on strict press and 205 pounds on the deadlift.  It feels good to be eating right and hitting it hard at RRCF!

 

Now to the next few months of the Ravage and beyond!

497 Reps = CrossFit Problems.

10 Jan

When I walked into the box and saw the 5:45 p.m. class suffering through this WOD, I seriously wanted to go home.  I had to ask my coach, Josh, for a slap on the face (this is totally ok – it’s my slap of confidence).  The WOD was has horrible as it looked.  Our team, which we named 2 Girls and a Guy, completed 497 reps.  Four hundred and ninety-seven reps, y’all!  Not bad, huh?

 

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Two thousand and thirteen.

3 Jan

Wow, 2013!  My cousin Heather is a blogger, Smart and Savvy Style, and she blogged about resolutions this week.  It’s funny because I feel the exact way she does – I don’t make them.  I started CrossFit last year before Christmas – take that all you “I’m gonna wait until the beginning of the year to start working out!”  To me, it shouldn’t matter – if you want to grow, make a change, try something new, take a chance – you should just do it!

To me, it’s all about setting goals.  So here goes, my goals are in no specific order:

  • walk across the Davis Theater stage and grab that stinkin’ diploma!
  • lose my last 30 pounds.
  • get a 125 pound clean and jerk.
  • get a 225 pound deadlift.
  • do a HSPU.
  • get 10 double unders, unbroken.
  • jump on a 24 inch box.
  • get a pull up either without the band or with just the blue band.
  • visit the hot tub during our annual cabin trip.
  • run a half marathon.
  • complete the 30-day cleanse and lose at least 15 pounds, what?!?!?!
  • become financially free, already working on this one!

There they are – my goals for 2013.

Snatch, what?

26 Dec

Snatch that weight!  Last week, one of our WODs included 1 rep max weight on the snatch.  I couldn’t get further than 55 pounds.  I knew the reason why:  I wasn’t doing them correctly.  Here’s what I wasn’t doing:

  • keeping the bar close to my body
  • shrugging
  • high pull
  • squatting

Wednesdays are open gym days at our box.  You can do gutz, a WOD, power hour or work on a certain technique.  There was already a group of girls working on the snatch technique when I got there.  Our coach, Josh, gave us the following setup to work on with lightweight (trainer bar with 10 pound plates on each side):

  1. 2 Snatch Deadlifts
  2. 2 Snatch Shrug
  3. 2 Snatch Hang Cleans
  4. 1 Snatch

I ended up doing the 4 steps with a PVC pipe and then moved to the trainer bar.  Before the night was over, I was keeping the bar close and dropping into a squat stance.  I decided to do some research on the snatch and found this awesome youtube video.  I can’t wait to get that good!  Can we say a goal for 2013???

Fletch’s Year-End Review

21 Dec

Wow, what can I say?  2012 has been an amazing year.  I hit my 30 pound lost mark, lost 4 pant sizes and so many other milestones.  It has been one year since I first stepped foot into River Region CrossFit (RRCF).  If you remember my story, I started CrossFit as an overweight couch potato weighing in over 200 pounds.  When I first contacted Josh Carter, my now coach at RRCF, I was at rock bottom and on the edge of giving up.  It is difficult not to become emotional while talking about my journey because I NEVER thought it could be done.  You can ask most anyone who has known me for a long time; I’m notorious for starting something and not finishing it:  Atkins Diet, LA Weight Loss, Planet Fitness, Jazzercise…the list goes on.

There is something about CrossFit that grabs a hold of you and doesn’t let go; well, that is if you allow it to totally consume you.  If you give it a chance and actually try – and I mean try with all your body, mind and soul – you can do it and you’ll have nothing but benefits to reap from it.  In one year, I have formed new friendships, gained confidence in myself and learned to love myself again.  For years, I disliked the person I had become:  depressed, emotional and afraid.  It took courage that sometimes…I just did not have in order to put myself together and interact with friends.  I never felt like I truly fit in – I was always the “fat” girl.  There were sometimes I didn’t go to get-together’s or parties because I felt horrible about myself:  my clothes didn’t fit right or I was just anxious to be around others.  Everything about me was out of sorts, which resulted in eating more and doing less.  When I look back at pictures, I can’t believe “that Stephanie,” the one who ate uncontrollably and had little self-worth had gotten so out of control.

Since 2006, I have let each year pass with wants and wishes of losing weight.  Each summer, I would tell myself – this is it – this time next year, I’ll be comfortable in my bathing suit.  Each year passed and more weight was packed on and before I knew it, my size 18 pants were too small.  When I contacted Josh 12 months ago, I was serious about changing my life, but there was always this voice in my head telling me, “you can’t do it – you always give up and what makes you think things will be different this time?”  River Region CrossFit is what is different this time:  the coaches, friends, atmosphere, community…that’s what is different.

Now, here I am, a CrossFitter.  I may not be the best CrossFitter and lift the most weight, but I am doing far more than I ever done.  Every single day, week, month – there’s an improvement or a new milestone.  Rikki Rogers said, “Strength doesn’t come from what you can do.  It comes from overcoming things you once thought you couldn’t.”  And for me, the year of 2012 has been about overcoming things I couldn’t before.  For 2013, I want to expand on my goals and set new personal records.

But yes, I wear crazy looking shoes and I don’t go one day without mentioning something CrossFit.  My Facebook page is filled with CrossFit this and CrossFit that.  My ears are on auto-tune…it feels like I can hear “CrossFit” from a mile away and when I hear it, my heart starts beating and my pulse speeds up.  I get super excited.  Even if it isn’t my conversation and I don’t know the people, I want to join the conversation if it’s geared around CrossFit.  Yep, you can say I’m addicted.

For me, CrossFit is more than just lifting weight.  CrossFit has been the avenue for me to find myself and learn to love myself again.  I have gained confidence and self-worth.  RRCF is true to its’ slogan – it is the baddest box in the River Region and does redefine fitness.

I have the most amazing coaches:  Joshua Carter, Wesley Hodges, Larry Geddings, Stephen Roy, Chris Bailey, Bucky Stephens and I cannot forget Mandy and Jake Baker, and Chandler Merrill.  Each and every single one of these coaches have taught me something – a technique, the need to believe in myself, commit to the movement and more.  They have seen me nervous, irritated, ticked off, upset and crying like a baby.  Not once, have they stopped believing in me.

Now to the even better stuff, my personal records and max weights!

One Rep Max:

  • November 12, 2012, Push Jerk:  105 pounds from 55 pounds on May 9, 2012
  • November 12, 2012, Deadlift:  200 pounds from 65 pounds on January 26, 2012

Personal Records:

  • November 27, 2012, Back Squat:  115 pounds from 55 pounds on February 23, 2012
  • December 15, 2012, Front Squat:  105 pounds from 75 pounds on April 17, 2012
  • Grace at 75 pounds, completed in 5 minutes and 20 seconds
  • 20 inch box jumps
  • 55 pound snatch
  • 55 pound overhead squat
  • 5k run (without stopping) in 40:13 compared to not being able to run 400 meters without stopping one year ago.
  • June 2012:  Competed in Embrace the Gauntlet, a Garage Games CrossFit Competition

Weight Lost:  33 pounds

Inches Lost:

  • Upper Arm:  2.5 inches
  • Bust:  5 inches
  • Waist:  3.7 inches
  • Hips:  5.8 inches
  • Thighs:  3 inches
  • Calves:  0.5 inches
  • Ankles:  0.5 inches

Total Lost:  21 inches

December 2012

200 pound Deadlift

200 pound Deadlift

November 2012

2011 vs 2012!!!!

2011 vs 2012!!!!

October 2012 vs October 2011

2012 5k on left vs 2011 5k on right

2012 5k on left vs 2011 5k on right

October 2012

October 2012

Barbells for Boobs, Grace scaled @ 75 pounds.  Completed in 5 min 20 sec.

Barbells for Boobs, Grace scaled @ 75 pounds. Completed in 5 min 20 sec.

July 2012

My coach, Wes, and me.20 inch box jump.

My coach, Wes, and me.
20 inch box jump.

June 2012

Clean and Jerks @ Embrace the Gauntlet

Clean and Jerks @ Embrace the Gauntlet

The video that started it all – I had to “chalk my hands” for courage to jump that 20 inch box!

Wow – times have changed…

Oh and crazy shoes, see?!?!?!

Fletch's shoes.

Fletch’s shoes.

Thank you to all my coaches, family, friends and ichalkit followers – thank you for the motivation, inspiration and encouragement.  It has been such a great year.  I can’t wait to see what great things will happen in 2013!!!

Determination.

18 Oct

My last post was about how I boo freaking hoo’ed at CrossFit on Tuesday.  Yesterday, I read some of my older posts and is unreal how a person can change in a few months.  I’ve mentioned it before and I’ll mention it again, CrossFit isn’t just about physical fitness, it is about breaking down those mental and emotional barriers to allow YOU to believe in yourself.  Little by little, I am becoming more confident in my skills.  I am believing in myself a little more each week.  It is tough, but I never expected it to be easy.

 

After my mini breakdown on Tuesday, I committed me – myself – and I to not letting it get me down.  I put behind the stares from falling on my head during HSPU’s and I showed up tonight determined to make that WOD my biatch, which I did.  Yes sir, I sure did!  And Josh Carter, if you are reading this, can we say progress?

 

Ok, so I am sure you’re wondering about tonight’s WOD, huh?

15 Clean and Jerks

Rest 1 minute

10 Clean and Jerks

Rest 1 minute

5 Clean and Jerks

Rest 1 minute

50 Deadlifts

30 lateral burpees

I was able to finish the 30 clean and jerks (at 75 pounds) in 8 minutes.  The entire WOD was completed under 20 minutes.