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From Darkness to Light.

26 Sep

Wow.  The past two weeks of my life have been rough.  To put it this way, I’ve seen darkness in two different parts of my life…and…thankfully, both have ended with being able sift through the darkness to see the stars, which allow access to the light.  I have no idea why things happen the way they do.  I suppose the saying is right: sometimes you have to hit rock bottom in order to make a change.  I’ve used the saying all throughout my journey from Couch Potato to CrossFitter, but I had no idea it would also apply to relationships with those you love: family, friends, etc.

It was hard being in the darkness for even a day, but coming out of it makes you appreciate life and the people you love even more.  You start fresh and renewed ready to commit more time and love to the relationship and the strength to tackle the next problem.  I don’t believe you have to be bound by blood for a loved one to be family.  I am thankful to have great friends who I consider family and I am also thankful to have a great family – both come together to support me and my goals.

For all my family and friends, I love you all.  I appreciate your care, concern and prayers.  Please know not a day goes by that I do not think of you in some way: a memory, a song, a picture…you all live within my heart.

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Hurdles.

25 Sep

I took a week off CrossFit.  It was strange not going to the box after work every Monday, Tuesday and Thursday – but it was nice to cook my son his favorite foods.  Even though my coach suggested I keep my eating clean, I didn’t.  I ate bad – real bad.  My work out struggled tonight because of it, but I hit up Publix after the WOD and bought some Paleo-friendly items for snacks and meals.

My next 5k will be here soon.  I am sort of nervous about it.  I would like to run the entire 5k without stopping, but I’m thinking that isn’t possible.  I’m trying to stay positive, but darn – running is so hard for me.  I’ve got the shin splints figured out, but now I need to master my breathing.  I breathe so hard when running that I feel embarrassed when someone runs with me.  I have been known to hold my breath while someone passes so they can’t hear my breathing…ugh.  Reading this makes me realize this yet another hurdle to jump over and conquer.  It’s going to take time, but somehow – someway – I’ll make it.

Ah, the test.

12 Sep

…looks like I’ll be put to the test in March 2013 at the 2nd Annual Gump Games.  During Embrace the Gauntlet, my mind was ripped to shreds.  I attempted to run the 5k at this year’s Gump Games.  I completed it, but felt a bit defeated.  Rich, a fellow CrossFitter at RRCF and blogger of 100 to 50 and Getting Better, has committed to compete in the Gump Games.  As much as I’m nervous and we aren’t even close to the competition, I’m hopeful that I will be stronger and not just physically, but mentally and emotionally.

 

CrossFit is more than strength.  It is a mind game.  It is similar to the mind game we play in life.  You are what YOU make it.  And guess what?  Your mind has a whole lot to do with the way YOU feel and the choices YOU make.  You can decide to stay positive and make the best of it or allow your mind to take control and throw you off your game.  Don’t let YOU get in the way of YOU.  Commit to making changes to better yourself.  It may not be CrossFit or fitness.  You may decide to make changes to better yourself in other ways like to spend more time with your family, be a more positive person or be easier on yourself.  Take the steps necessary to help build a better YOU – one that you’ll be proud of.  Forget what everyone else is thinking, doing or saying and do it for YOU!

 

This time, it’s all about you.  Make the best of it and change that MIND!

 

Change YOUR Mind.

Don’t Wake Me Up…

20 Aug

…yes, the title is the same as a Chris Brown song.  And yes, it’s a love song, but for me it applies to what my life is now.  My life feels like a dream.  So, please don’t wake me up!

Tonight was a HUGE night.  I was seriously freaking out about the WOD for tonight.  I can handle power cleans and squat cleans, but when I read 1600 meter run – I was like, oh heck no!  I was trying to stay positive.  Rich and Josh Matlock were helping me stay positive – they’re really encouraging folks.

We completed our power cleans (finally made it up to 95 pounds, woot!) and it was time to run the 1600 meters – for time.  I started running and my breathing was getting out of control, but I kept telling myself – I CAN do this and I AM NOT going to stop.  400 meters done then it was 800 meters done and I’m still running…then, the breathing was manageable.  It finally dawned on me, I really CAN do this.  I’m not going to give up and man what a feeling it will be to actually run the entire 1600 meters straight.  As I’m running, I see my other fellow CrossFitters – they are also giving it all they’ve got.  We’re cheering each other on – we can do this.  And we did.  All of us.  We ran it straight.  My time for the 1600 meters was 12:11.  I stepped into the box and my coach, Josh, was like – FLETCH, you finished????  And I just nodded and started crying.  Man, what a feeling.  One more goal – accomplished.

Why was this a huge deal?  Well, back in January after CrossFitting for one month – I attempted to run the 5k at the Gump Games.  I had terrible shin splints and spent a little extra time with my coach, Josh, trying to fix the problem.  He taught me the correct way to run, but I still wasn’t strong enough to run most of it.  As I’m crying and walking the last part of the route, I see this woman – she came to find me – and she started walking with me.  Come to find out “she” was my coach’s, Wes, mom.  She kept telling me it was great that I was attempting the 5k.  We rounded the corner and then I see Wes.  They both walked with me to the finish line.  If that isn’t encouragement, I don’t know what it is.  THIS, is what CrossFit is about.  It’s about becoming part of a family – one that wants YOU to succeed.

Here’s a photo I put together.  The left photo (taken by Rich Matlock) was taken during the last leg of the 5k at the Gump Games and the right photo was taken tonight by my hubby.

Like I said, don’t wake me up.

With the Mother…

23 Jul

…Mmmm Mmmm Mmmm!  Bragg’s Apple Cider Vinegar, with the mother, is delish!  My sister-in-law, Sarah, whipped up some Italian dressing over the weekend and I seriously thought about turning up the container and drinking it.  I’ve called our local health food store and they carry it, so Darrell will be picking up some tomorrow.  I bet you’re asking what is so special about this vinegar??  Well, I’m glad you asked because I’m gonna tell you!

Per the website, http://bragg.com there are internal and external benefits.

Internal Benefits:

  • Rich in enzymes and potassium
  • Supports a healthy immune system
  • Helps control weight
  • Promotes digestion and ph balance
  • Helps soothe dry throats
  • Helps remove body sludge toxins

External Benefits:

  • Helps maintain healthy skin
  • Helps promote youthful, health bodies
  • Soothes irritated skin
  • Relieves muscle pain from exercise

Oh and did I mention that it’s naturally gluten-free??

Commit.

16 Jul

Sharon, who I work with at MASA, collects these one page Business Digest faxes every single day.  Even when she’s out, we save them for her.  She will cut out her favorite quotes or information found on the one page fax and share them with others.  On Friday, July 13, she shared one with me – the portion under Development – and I’d like to share it with y’all.

Commit yourself:

  • Be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
  • Talk health, happiness, and prosperity.
  • Make all your friends feel that there is something special in them.
  • Look at the sunny side of everything.
  • Think only the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best.
  • Be as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.
  • Wear a cheerful countenance and give every living creature you meet a smile.
  • Be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, too happy to permit trouble.

Taken from Optimist International

Is Weakness A Choice?

29 Jun

I was Googling CrossFit apparel and came across http://www.fashletics.com/.  They have a shirt called “WEAKNESS IS A CHOICE,” see picture below.  In the description for the shirt it reads, “Instead of being a victim of circumstance, CHOOSE to find the strength to overcome obstacles, fears, and misfortune.  It’s never easy but it’s always worth it.”

Starting today, my goal is to always choose strength.  Not just for CrossFit, but for my entire life.  For my obstacles, I will choose strength.  For my fears, I will choose strength.  And for my misfortune, I will choose strength.

Before last night’s WOD, my coach Josh and I talked about my feelings after the Gauntlet.  He was upset with me for not recognizing what I accomplished on Saturday.  He has every right to be upset with me.  He believes in me and recognized my strength.  Now it’s time for me to recognize my own strength.  So, here goes – I am letting go of my past.  No more stressing over what was or has been – stressing over it does not make me stronger – it makes me weaker.  I will no longer allow those thoughts and feelings to dilute my mind, body and soul.

I AM MAKING WEAKNESS A CHOICE – ONE THAT I WILL NOT CHOOSE.

Alright y’all, it’s on like donkey kong!

Weakness is a Choice

Front

Back

To view or purchase this t-shirt, please click here.

Express Yourself!

26 Jun

Since my emotional blow up, I have been researching emotions during weight loss. I came across some interesting information worth sharing.

Taken from, Emotional Benefits of Losing Weight

In losing weight, you’re not only losing pounds, but emotional baggage as well.

Dependence on Food: Those who are overweight learn to deal with their problems by finding comfort in food. Food becomes a valuable crutch. Instead of showing emotions, you eat; you eat when you’re happy, you eat when you’re depressed, you eat when you’re bored. Food becomes your way of expressing emotion. As you lose the weight, you lose that emotional crutch and can begin to learn how to express yourself once again.

My next goal: learning how to express myself again.