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Who is “Stressed Stephanie?”

17 Feb

I’ve been staring at this screen for about 10 minutes trying to figure out how to start this post.  What do I even want to say?  Let’s start with the truth.  Fletch has been lost, for months.  Stephanie has been happy, but stressed.  Why have I been stressed?  Well, let’s see, take a minute, read the last post and return to reading this one – there’s no reason to write that mess over again.

What’s a day in the life of “Stressed Stephanie?”  My mind ping-ponging all over the place with the inability to focus.  The smallest task feels like I am moving a mountain.  Goals that feel out-of-reach and unobtainable.  The thought of laying in bed, all day, with the lights off seems relaxing – not depressing.  Being a loner, not laughing nor smiling.  Waiting until the last-minute to handle tasks.  Giving up.

For those who know me, and I mean really know me – am I really “Stressed Stephanie?”  When have you ever seen me and I don’t at least crack a smile or let out my weird laugh?  “Stressed Stephanie” got called into the principal’s office last week.  I received a “come to Jesus meeting” like no other.  Sure, I cried – but it was different.  At first, I didn’t feel like me.  I felt weak and almost dark, if that makes any sense.  The once full-of-life Fletch was non-existent.

During the “come to Jesus meeting,” a lot of my issues were actually spoken instead of hidden.  When you actually tell someone your thoughts and fears you become totally vulnerable.  I was getting to the point where I thought only a few people truly cared about me.  You see, on most days – I’m a dependable person.  What happens to dependable people?  At some point in their life, they are stepped on and taken advantage of.  I have been stepped on and taken advantage of in more ways than I can count.  I was feeling torn down, completely.  I looked in the mirror and didn’t like what I was seeing – not just the physical appearance, but down to my soul.  The parts that made me – me – were missing.

My goals, gone.  My loving personality, gone.  My compassion, gone.  My understanding of others, gone.  What did I become?  Bitter.  I was bitter toward others and was somehow blaming them for my mistakes.  I wasn’t dealing with my mistakes or owning up to them.  After being asked a series of questions at my “come to Jesus meeting,” there was no escaping the truth.  It was time for me to put my big girl panties on and deal with my mistakes.

I am still struggling to keep the negative thoughts out of my mind.  I can still think of things and feel an urge of panic, but right now – I am able to calm myself down.

Currently, I’m training with Josh away from the box.  My strength hasn’t totally recovered, but I can feel ole Fletch more and more each day.

So what’s next?  I found out tonight – a half marathon in 5 months.

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Can you say sore!?!?!

26 Mar

Remember back in January when I posted about the Ravage?  Well, we are deep in the Ravage with just a few weeks until the end and our box is straight up Beastmode.  It is almost ridiculous.  Our coach, Josh, stopped posting the WOD‘s on RRCF’s website – with good reason.  He didn’t want to give anyone an excuse to skip the WOD based on intensity, etc.  And well, the WOD’s have been intense – but I enjoy it.  It’s progress.  Everyone is working so hard and it seems like it’s bringing our RRCF family closer together…

…and because of our “working so hard,” our bodies are so sore!  We have three back-to-back WOD’s this week due to the box closing down for spring cleaning Thursday – Sunday, and man – I may need some Epsom Salt – STAT!  Our WOD on Monday was:

21-15-9

Deadlifts

Toes to Bar

…2 minute rest…

3 rounds of 10 hang cleans and 30 sit ups

 

I completed the 21-15-9 with 135 pound deadlifts.  I still can’t get a toes to bar, but I give it all I got!  The hang cleans were only at 75 pounds, but after those deadlifts – it felt much heavier!

Tonight’s WOD was 13.3!!!  Ahhhhhh!  Wall Balls are not my thing.  I was able to get 139 wall balls out of the 150 with a 10 pound ball.  Not the best, but I’ll take it.  After all, that’s an improvement!

Keep WODing, y’all.

Awesome-ness.

12 Nov

Why is that when I blab about my feelings on here that they are usually resolved the next day?  I suppose I shouldn’t question it and just go with it, huh?  Suits me.  I’m just glad tonight’s WOD was able to lift my spirits.  What can I say to sum up tonight’s WOD?  AWESOME-NESS, that’s what it was.  I felt so good that I couldn’t focus on studying for my Finance test, instead I was turning cartwheels in my living room.  Soon the cartwheels turned into trying to do a HSPU in my dining room.  I was able to get up on the wall, ahem, by myself – but my arms weren’t locked, which cause the leaning and then crashing tower of Fletch.  I landed on my head, but I was too surprised that I got on the wall that I didn’t care.  I tried it again, but wasn’t as successful, but it’s a start, right??

 

I bet you’re wondering what was so awesome about tonight’s WOD…well, Josh Carter and coaches were determined to encourage everyone at the box to PR on Deadlifts and Push Jerks.  I have to say by all the posts popping up in my News Feed on Facebook that they were successful.  At the 5:45 p.m. class tonight, people were working up to their max 1 rep goal.  It was truly amazing to see everyone in the zone.  I know everyone in our class exceeded their max – it literally makes me want to scream “YEAH YUH” like Lil Jon.  Ahhhh!!!!  Before tonight my max on the Deadlift was 155 pounds, but tonight my max increased to 200 pounds!  I mean, whaaat??  That’s crazy, right?  My Push Jerk tonight exceeded to 105 pounds…eek!!!

 

I truly think everyone left the box tonight feeling accomplished.  Good stuff happening, people, good stuff.

Updates…

11 Nov

…it has been awhile since I’ve posted.  My apologies.  Things have busy and I haven’t really been feeling inspired lately.  I have got to get out of this funk that I’m in.  I can’t get my mind right, which is interfering with my workouts and school.  Ugh.  One thing that is different though, which is a HUGE improvement is that I’m still showing up for the WODs.  The Stephanie in the past would have quit by now and went back to the same old crap of being lazy and eating/cooking anything her little heart desired.  Enough about all this, let’s move onto the updates.

Update 1:  Barbells for Boobs.  I was pretty nervous.  I’m not exactly sure why, but I was.  A group of ladies from work came to the box to support me, which was amazing.  🙂  I completed the 30 clean and jerks at 75 pounds in 5 minutes and 20 seconds.  I set a personal record that day and our box raised over $2,000!!!  Yippppeeee!

Barbells for Boobs at RRCF

Strong Ta-Ta’s.

Clean and Jerk at 75 Pounds

Update 2:  Halloween Bash at RRCF.  Lauren, Wes and I threw a Halloween Bash at the box.  It was a whole lotta fun.  I showed off some of my awesome dance moves, you know the MC Hammer, lawnmower, grocery cart and many others.  Ha!

Lauren as Sophia Grace, me as La Sarah and Wes as Ellen Degeneres

La Sarah and Darrell as Lil Wayne

Vic as John Cena and La Sarah

La Sarah and my Coach, Josh

Update 3:  HSPU’s reared its ugly head again.  Once again, I cried and left me feeling totally defeated.  My coach Wes gave me a much-needed “Come to Jesus Meeting.”  Grrrr.  I have decided to start with cartwheels.  Think about it:  I’ll get used to the “going down movement,” supporting my weight and overcoming my fear of being upside down.  I think it can work.

Update 4:  I bought a size medium coat.  Yeah yuh!  Last year, I was wearing an x-large and I hate to admit this, but I was still wearing my maternity pea coat.  Again, why did I let myself get that out of control?  I am so thankful for CrossFit, my coaches and my RRCF family and let’s not forget my friends and family.  All of them together help keep me motivated.  So, if you’re reading…I’m in desperate need of some inspiration and motivation.  Not physical, but mental.  Help me get out of this funk!  I need to believe in myself again.

Well, that’s about it.  Holla!